my life is like a movie and i have the front seat to everything. I tend to be half conscious and half paramnesia. i feel like that sometimes i have  a very slow perception of time, which even confuses me more.  The past few days have been quite fun, where i've been satisfied of where I'm standing and who i'm surrounded by. I used to think that i had this stoic demeanor, which is completely false. (im more susceptible to many things.) Maybe having a stoic demeanor is the ultimate goal, cause it sounds easier but i doubt that.